Monday, December 30, 2013

A very personal look back at 2013


This year brought a number of major changes to my life – one negative, some positive. This is how it went down:

January: Lucas' last month at OBI, as his year-long work contract ran out the end of the month. Norbert and I flew to the US the end of the month, spending a few nights at the Outer Banks before heading to Mom's.

February: A good visit with Mom, but I was shocked at how tiny and fragile she was. She said repeatedly what a good visit we had, and when we left, I told Norbert that I thought she felt it was the last time we would see each other.

The good news of the month was that Lucas was accepted in the job-training programme at OBI, starting August 1.

Norbert and I celebrated our 22nd anniversary. The weather was awful all winter, lots of snow.

March: The nasty weather continue all month, and we even saw snowflakes on Easter Sunday, March 31.

OBI decided that since Lucas would be back with them as of the summer, he may as well join them now, and hired him back on a part-time basis as of the first of the month.

This month had my cycling highlight, as Gerald Ciolek won Milan-SanRemo in a major upset, and helped put his team MTN-Qhubeka on the map. Incidentally, that race was shortened by snow, which was to become a common theme this spring.

On the evening of Saturday, March 30, we received a phone call from the US that mom had been taken to the hosptial with an apparent heart attack. Fortunately my brother was visiting her at the time.

Later that evening we got word that she had not survived. It was, on the one hand, sudden and unexpected, and on the other hand – not. She had been noticeably deteriortaing physically the last year or so. We all cried and realized how blessed we were to have had her in our lives.

April: I flew over to the US and Norbert and Lucas flew a few days later. We shared some beautiful moments and memories with family and friends at Mom's funeral, before turning ourselves to the work of closing up her house.

I basically missed the entire Spring Classics this year. I believe a did about an hour live report for the Tour of Flanders, which was the day after Mom died, but I have still no idea who won. I also watched Paris-Roubaix, but saw none of the others.

We flew back from the US on Friday, April 12, and exactly one week later, Norbert and I flew back to the US for our planned vacation. We were both exhausted, physically and emotionally, and wished our plans had been different.

That vacation turned out to be a huge success. We flew to Jacksonville, Florida, and drove up to the Okefenokee Swamp in Georgia for two days. We absolutely loved it – so beautiful and mysterious and different. It turned out to be the perfect distraction and soothing to our souls.

After a few days at the beach in Florida – including one afternoon laying in the sun! -- we flew up to Norfolk, The original plan had been to spend a week with Mom, and we changed it to a few days at the Outer Banks and a few days meeting my brother at Mom's house to finalize things.

May: Got home on May 3, just in time for the Giro d'Italia, which started on May 4. Yes, I planned it that way.

The end of the month Norbert and I drove to Bavaria, and spent a lovely weekend with our cousins Anja, Wolfgang and Lisa. So wonderful to get to know them and add them to our life!

This month I made a decision I had been thinking about for a year: I decided to retire from Cyclingnews. Although only a part-time job, it took up very much of my time, life and energy. I decided I wanted to use those assets in other ways in the future: spending more time with my family, traveling, hobbies – in other words, enjoying myself in the years I have left.

June: This month saw Lucas take his first solo vacation. He flew to DC and stayed with my brother for about 10 days. I understand a good time was had by all.

July: The Tour of France, of course, which is rather all-consuming. But my last one!

Lucas turned 20 – I don't have a teenager anymore!

Started the month out in a great way: Norbert and I saw Bruce Springsteen in concert. Absolutely wonderful! But odd to see all these old people grooving in the audience.........

August: Lucas started his job-training at OBI. It will be for two to three years, and he will get expereience in every department. This should set him up for a career.

Anja, Wolfgang and Lisa took revenge for our visit, by coming to us for a weekend. We enjoyed celebrating Anja's birthday!

The break between the Tour de France and the Vuelta a Espana seems to be shorter every year, and I plunged into my last Grand Tour.

We were so thrilled by our Springsteen experience, that we went to another concert. This time it was Joe Cocker, and it too was great and much fun.

September:

The highlight of this month was of course the tenth: my 60th birthday! It still seems awfully old to me – but a great age to stop working quite so much! We took the family out to dinner that evening, and then had a big party with neighbors, friends and extended family on the following weekend.

I also made the public announcement that I was leaving Cyclingnews.

After much thought I decided what I wanted for a birthday present, a new sewing machine. I got a really super new one with every convenience. I must say, the technology has sure changed a lot over the years, and a good machine is so different from the cheap ones I had always had before. I love having the opportunity to sew clothes and things again!

October: I had planned to stop at Cyclingnews after the World Championships in September, but at a colleague's request, I stayed on through the Tour of Lombardy on October 6. Thank you once again to Dan Benson for letting me do the last hour or so of the live report as a goodbye. And thank you to everyone associated with the website, and all those who read it!

Norbert and I had stayed home long enough, so we jumped on an airplane and flew to London. We met my brother Bill there and had a great, if tiring, time sightseeing. It was also good to be with Bill on what would have been our mom's 85th birthday. Wouldn't she have loved to be there with us!

November: I was lucky enough to almost immediately find a new part-time job (hopefully only part-time!) and something I had always wanted to do. Stephan Flock, with whom I worked on and off for several years, and I will do the press work for the Synergy Baku Cycling Project, a cycling team based in Azerbaijan.

The middle of the month Norbert and I took off to the North Sea in the Netherlands. The weather was not terribly co-operative, but we got in lots of long walks and good fresh air, and mainly enjoyed the opportunity to just get away from real life for a few days.

The end of the month I did something I had sworn I would never do: I opened a twitter account.

December: I had been afraid that when I stopped working for Cyclingnews I would end up sitting at home with nothing to do and dying of boredom, so I made long list of things to do. So far I have had time for none of them!

Having been to the UK in October and the Netherlands in November, I extended the streak by going to Spain in December, attending the Baku training camp for a few days. A very interesting experience, and I think I am going to like this job!

Strange not to call Mom on Christmas, but we had lots of loving memories of her.

What's coming up? For 2014 I hope for, of course, good health and much happiness for all of us. For myself, I hope the new work goes well and proves not to be too time-consuming. I want to have lots of time to devote to my sewing, baking and cooking, as well as time for family and cat!

We have three vacations planned already for the year, with a fourth in the works. Yes, all involve the US........

Summary: Mom's death was not only the biggest moment of the year, but a turning point in my life. It helped me make my decision to leave my job, to use my time doing what I want to do.

Interestingly enough, a number of friends also lost their moms this year. Being able to share that experience with them was important and helpful – if only to know that this is a part of life and something we must all go through.

All in all though, things are positive. I now have more time and less stress, and am eager to use that to continue to enjoy my life.

Wishing everyone all the best in the coming year!

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